I HAVE STRUGGLED THE LAST TWO YEARS HARDER THAN EVER. WORKED TWO FULL TIME JOBS;MANAGING ALL DAY & BARTENDING ALL NIGHT, SO THAT I COULD REPAY A DEBT MY HUSBAND LEFT ON ME. WORKED MYSELF INTO THE GROUND SO THAT MY 4 YEAR OLD COULD HAVE A NICE HOME, AND FOOD, AND TOYS,AND A HAPPY UP BRINGING, & NOT SEE OR FEEL THE HARDSHIPS THAT I'VE BEEN FACING. SO MANY TIMES I WANTED TO GIVE UP.I FELT LIKE SUCH A FAILURE. NEVER BEING ABLE TO SPEND ANY REAL TIME WITH MY PRECIOUS LIL GIRL. HER ALWAYS HUNGRY FOR MY ATTENTION. IT BROKE MY HEART. I WAS SO HAPPY WHEN SHE WAS BORN, THOUGHT HOW WONDERFUL MY LIFE HAD BECOME. MY WORLD FEEL OUT FROM UNDER ME THOUGH IN 2006, WHEN MY HUSBAND WAS ARRESTED AND I WAS TOLD BY OFFICERS THAT MY HUSBAND AND LOVING FATHER, WHO I HAD BEEN WITH FOR 4 YEARS ;WAS A FUGITIVE AND WAS LIVING WITH AN ALIAS NAME. HE OWED SO MUCH MONEY TOO. TO PEOPLE I HOPE I NEVER RUN ACROSS AGAIN....I'VE MADE IT THIS FAR. I JUST FINISHED PAYING THESE PEOPLE OFF IN MARCH.....I PRAISE MY LORD THAT THIS BURDEN IS LIFTED, BUT NOW STRUGGLE WITH HAVING JUST LOST MY JOB, IN SEQUINCE I HAD TO GIVE UP MY HOME AND ASK MY MOTHER TO LET MY DAUGHTER AND I SLEEP ON HER FLOOR, TILL I CAN GET BACK ON MY FEET. I FEEL LIKE SUCH A FAILURE AGAIN. IM TRYING TO BE POSITIVE, AND WORK THE LAWS OF ATTRACTION INTO MY LIFE, AND GET BACK ON TRACK,AND START LIVING , INSTEAD OF EXISTING, BUT I FEEL SO BROKEN..........
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Hi Brynna's Mom, < i hope i spelled that right. :)
I don't have much experience in giving people advice and i hardly ever take my own advice. BUT i can tell you that I have been through a lot of the same horrible stuff you're going through. You see, my dad has been separated from his wife(my stepmother) for over 8 years now and ever since their divorce, life has been a rollercoaster. My dad went through times when he couldn't find employment and we were always behind on the bills, we've been kicked out of the apartments that we've lived in at least 3 times, we have been a burden by living with my friend's family for a year, and it was just this past summer that we moved out of there. However, things have gotten worse and went downhill shortly after. My dad has entered into depression, he no longer is seeking employment or hapiness for that matter. He sits in the apartment that him and my brother live in, and he smokes and he waits. There is just no turning him around but I have to move on with life. We have been through so much as a family and I have learned that life IS a battle and it is a test of strength. Patience makes you a beautiful person and if you push onward and carry your strength with you, you will find a way to get out of the most impossible situations. There's a place for everyone in life and a wise person once told me that you have to discover the place that's right for you, just keep your eyes on the horizon.
i hope im not too wordy. i seriously feel for you though, even if i dont know you...
First of all, in order to get through any obstacle you can not beat yourself up. Stop saying that you are a failure, because you're not. Every person in this world face adversity at one time or another. It's up to the person to persevere. Life is a test that God set before us. It's up to you to pass the test. Obstacles, Circumstances and Situations are going to come your way, either you are going to give up or you are going to fight and no matter what I AM A FIGHTER! Just remember "No Weapon Formed Against You Shall Prosper"! God is only a call away. He may not come when you call Him, But He is always On Time. Just pray and ask God to direct your path. My Lights were turned off the other day for $52.39 and I wrote a bad check after my children and I were in the dark for two days. One thing is for certain and that is ,things can not be any worse and the outcome is sweet. Have faith and trust and believe that God is the source of all your needs. You are a great mother and do not let anyone tell you no different.